1.17.2009

Breathing is all A matter of Pressure.

When someone tells you grades and numbers and assessments mean nil,
in the long run, they're actually
lying to you.
Because,
really?
They matter. They matter,
a lot.
Life is secretly a long line of people all waiting to pass judgement on you, looking to see if
you're 
GOOD ENOUGH.
So you have to have your credentials ready, 
you have to be GOOD ENOUGH.
Good enough for them to look at you.
Good enough for them to want
you.
Bosses, teachers, friends, colleagues, bankers, lovers, investors, the government, your parents.
Everyone.
Wants to know.
If.
You,
(yes, YOU)
are good enough.
Good enough for them.
Good enough for their money.
Good enough for their
TIME.
Because if you're not
worth it, that is.
If you're not GOOD ENOUGH, that is.
They don't want you.
And
time is short.
So,
they want your numbers.
Because,
numbers are fast.
Numbers are
GOOD ENOUGH, for them.
For them to know you
For them
to know
if
YOU are good enough.

1.12.2009

City Song.

she'll spit the streets beneath my feet
traveling me
taking me on
a journey.
maybe if i look hard enough
i'll see her shadow on
the skyline
bright neon, like a beacon
like a calling
like a fresh breath to 
a choking soul.
she'll envelop me 
take my hand
she'll lead me into her
heart
the pumping and thumping
blare of car horns.
the flashing neon lights
beaconing 
me
her
calling
pulling away the streets
leave me
chasing after
her.

1.11.2009

Funnel cakes, in the end, are not funnel shaped at all... Which might be mind-blowing, for someone who wasn't expecting that... 

They're actually kind of squiggly, wormy looking... 

Nonsensical, we call it. 

Not quite funnel shaped
Then why call it funnel cake?
I really don't know.

However, the real question is: Is 'shaped' one syllable or two?

untitled.

the first time around
isn't nearly as exciting 
as the second
when you know what to expect
and when.
laughing disarmingly
at the not funny
parts. its only natural.
maybe the sadism
will kick in.
kicking and screaming
like an ant
covered in napalm
or was it pesticide?
and curiosity
never got you anywhere
but trouble. so
they tell me.

Cigar.

its something in the smell of
cigarettes, when your sinuses are dry.
they smell of comfort and a remembrance
of death.
the quiet orange light
in the dark
can be a comfort,
you know they're still
breathing.